Scarameow: My love, I could not bear the thought of this happening to you. I love you too much to lose you. I couldn't bear the thought of losing you to the struggles of life, you are one of the only good things left. Though I am away, I want you to keep going, my love. You are as beautiful as the moon, as important as the sun, you are the clear blue sky, you are a shining star in a the pitch-black darkness of night. You are everything, if not to anyone but me. I hope and I wish I never lose you, my love. I can't stress enough how fragile and vulnerable I would feel if you were gone. I hope you feel the same way, but, I understand I could be less than just another person to you, sometimes. I'm sorry I have to leave, if you're mad. Thank you for all your support, your kind words that nobody has ever told me, and how much you make me feel valued. I wish we weren't so far away. I wish I could hold you, really, if that's not dumb. My mental health has collapsed, I'll seek help soon. I believe in you with every last piece of my shattered heart. I feel like a fool writing this. I'm so tired. I'll finish my work, I'll do my assignments, I'll tolerate home for longer. You make me feel heard, unlike anywhere else. I love you, miss you, but I need this. I hope you understand, my love. Goodnight, goodmorning, evening or afternoon. I am really, truly writing this from the heart, please believe me, please. I don't expect anything, I don't expect acknowledgement or love in return, but, I really hope this reached your heart if you ever see this. xxx
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